I think they thing I get most jealous about when it comes to work is when other classroom assistants around me get interviews and jobs while I don’t even get the interviews. It’s hard because I want to be happy for them but it’s so frustrating to apply and apply and apply and get no response. I know that there are hundreds of applicants for every teaching position posted but I still find myself wondering “What’s wrong with me? Why am I not getting calls? When is it my turn?”
Don’t get me wrong I enjoy my current job and I do teach but it’s just not the same thing. Yes I have less responsibility but I miss that. I also miss the connection you make when you see your students every day. Even teaching middle school where I had around 100 kids I saw it felt like I connected with my students better than now when I see around 300 a week. I’m still struggling to remember all of their names even, I might have them all by the end of the school year.
All I can do is just keep trying, keep applying and wait for my time to come.
Written for the DP Daily Prompt: Green Eyed Lady